Wow, my head is spinning. Dave!! What a roll you are on!!!
Some Goodwills now pick up. Salvation Army in my area does, also AmVets and DAV. With AmVets, once you are on their list, they will call you whenever a truck will be in your neighborhood. I am really good about, oh yes, I will have something! then, find stuff to give away!!
Yeah, 8 million details. Compared to Mary Ann and Dave, I'm feeling like I'm strolling Easy Street, a much smaller stack of details. Details For One, immediate seating. Not very complicated. sell, pack, go.
I did not expect to wrestle with this. I think I didn't expect to want it, I thought I wanted my life Here. Or maybe "in a few years" make a change. But, doggone it, I not only want to build the new garden mounds (Hugelkultur), but shepherd them through the season. Be the one plucking out the mature herbs and getting them tied, upside down, and drying.
I also have a trustable gut. It takes a while for it to churn to a decision, but then that decision is solid. I feel like the churning is still happening or nearly end of cycle, based on the angst and sleeplessness it's handing me ...
I don't have a lot of stuff any more, I could be packed up pretty quickly. I know where I'm going, the exact coordinates, if not the structure (looks like a cabin kit would be a great starter for me). Not sweating sale of this place. there isn't much inventory in this old neighborhood, homes sell fast. My new next door neighbor asked for first crack at the place, if I was ever going to sell (our lots used to be one). I just didn't expect to offer it Soon.
I would save a pile of money living there, and could make some money growing stuff, making stuff, selling stuff, but not so much pressure on it with near evaporation of monthly expenses and sufficient savings to roll with things until some new cash shows up. I could enjoy hobbies I never tried before, with no real responsibility for grounds maintenance, although I would be very involved in its beautification and would of course help with stuff. Especially growing food and cooking food. On a beautiful day like today, I could have lazed in a hammock with a book, while a hired camp assistant mowed or whatever. That was of course not how my day went.... hot, sweaty, productive, zero Yard Guys, yet, difficult to see that anything happened. There is a lot of pure freedom to this opportunity. There is a chance to feel Caught Up every day just with massive decrease in chores.
Here, I will never ever be caught up, and maybe I can't take the guilt or feelings of being overwhelmed any more. It feels like I know what to do, and should get on it and get gone by Spring. Start my new chapter and do it now.
Living in a cabin in the mountains was one of my dreams. It had been Asheville, long before everyone else found it ; ) Then it was "somewhere between Knoxville and Asheville".... It was so long ago that I seem to have forgotten! Hit me last night, like, BLAM, you dummy, don't you remember??
I remember staying in various campgrounds across the US, thinking, it would be fun to own something like this! And here I am, someone else taking the big responsibility, the big risks. I had thought about Carolinas, were I to leave here for retirement, so that is a perfect fit. Just a few hours from some relatives I have seen a handful of times since I was about 8.
I didn't sleep well last night. Like a decision I don't have to make is weighing on me, and part of me has settled the matter and is actively trying to convince the other parts.
I don't feel comfortable talking to people in my real life about this yet. It's a lot easier to handle opinions from "people I know on the internet". I have several friends that would be completely supportive, even if they would never do it, don't get it.... they know me well enough to understand my offbeatness, and they know I liked the camp a lot, and there is a good chance they will visit. Repeatedly. My family, however, would crap all over it. I have never fit the molds they keep trying to shove me in. I'd rather tell them after I have taken certain action to do it. Or, heh, maybe after I get there... here's my new address... lol....
You had a final home to ultimately move into. I don't have that yet. Since we think we've found the location and development we'll like, the only way to know is to go there and try it out. This brand new rental home that has never been lived in is a perfect situation for us right now.
